So Where Does That Leave Me?

I have been pondering over whether or not to share this, and after some consideration, I have decided to do so.  Maybe there is someone out there who thinks like I do and can relate.  And, if not, then I suppose this is one way to offer insight to myself for any of my friends out there who would like to know me better.  Surely, there is someone.  😉

I was raised in the church and have had a personal relationship with Christ from the age of 9 years old.  I have had times in my life when that relationship was stronger and more intimate than at other times, but I can honestly say that the past 30 years of my life have been consistently spent serving Him.

Over the decades that I have been a Christian, there has been an area that I have sometimes struggled with understanding.  To put it plainly, I don’t have a broad comprehension of God’s love.  I have heard many times over the years phrases such as, “You mean so much to Him”, “God loves You so much”, “You are so special to Him”, “He would have died on that cross, even if You were the only person on earth”, etc.

I have heard these things so often over the years, but somehow I find it hard to believe that He really loves ME that much.  I’m not really all that great.  And, I know that it is not really about me anyway, it is about Him.  Yet, still, I wonder sometimes if those things are true about Him loving me that much.

I have such a blessed life and I cannot complain about much of anything.  I believe that we all can make a choice concerning how we choose to live life and that God lays out some principles in His word that if we abide by them, then we will be blessed.  Truthfully, it’s not all that hard.  He lays out a formula and we plug in the rest.  I guess that is the Math teacher in me talking.  But lately, I have been having a harder time believing that He really loves me as much as I have been told that He does.  And, just when things are beginning to get me down, God shows up for me.  Allow me to tell you how.

Our daughter Devri had a birthday on May 1st.  I wanted to plan a birthday party for her and due to some work we were having done on our house, we needed to do something off site.  She said that she wanted a bowling party, so I charged ahead with that plan.  I called the bowling alley and got all the details for the cost of the party and then proceeded to book it.  When asked what day and time, I replied that because my daughter attends a private school and we get out at noon on Fridays that I would like to have the party from 1-3p.m.  She hesitated for half a second and then said, “Well, we aren’t open during that time, but for you I will go ahead and open for you.  I’m the manager here and I don’t mind doing that for you.”  I was very grateful and the plan was in motion.

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The next week I found some really cute invitations on Etsy and I ordered them.  I also began ordering these cute bowling pin water bottles that I planned on personalizing for all of the party guests.  Next, I needed a cake.  I found the perfect cake and ordered it from The Great Cakery in Coahoma.  I received the invitations and got them all distributed to Devri’s friends.

A few days before the party, Stacey from The Great Cakery called to confirm my order and to make arrangements for me to pick up the cake.  I mentioned to her that my husband would have to pick it up because I would be working until noon and the party was at 1p.m.  She happily volunteered to deliver the cake to the bowling alley for no charge.

I arrived at the bowling alley at 12:15 on the day of the party to set up.  The manager Tammy and the owner of Big Spring Bowl-a-Rama, Diana were so excited about my decorations and the bowling pin water bottles that they wanted to add to the decor.  Diana gave me two Happy Birthday bowling pins for the party guest to sign for Devri to keep as a memento.  Normally, she sells them for an additional $15/each.  The decorations and the cake were perfect and now we were ready to party!

To my great surprise, out of 22 guests that were invited, all but 2 showed up.   And, thankfully, all of the mammas of these dear children are my friends and they all stayed and assisted me in serving pizza, drinks and cake and in the general running that is involved in a child’s birthday party.  I could not have survived without them.  Another “gift” to be thankful for that day.


Tammy was wonderful about accommodating all of our needs and she even allowed us a few of Devri’s favorite songs on the jukebox and provided disco lights to set the mood.  The kids had a wonderful time dancing and bowling.  It really could not have gone any better than it did.

For all of this, I was so grateful.  On top of having a great turn out at the party, I felt like God gave me some bonus blessings throughout.  The party was a success and it was over and we were back home by 4:30, in time to still enjoy the evening with the family.

For dinner, Devri wanted to go eat at the Hotel Settles.  It is a historical hotel in Big Spring that was recently beautifully restored and we love to dine there.  When we arrived at the Settles Grill, we were quickly seated at a table directly in front the musical ensemble for the evening-a woman sitting along side a gentleman playing the keyboard.  The thought ran through my head that we were sitting so close to them that the music was going to be bothersome.  Boy, was I wrong.  Throughout the meal we were serenaded with jazz tunes from the likes of Frank Sinatra and Tony Bennett.  We tipped the musicians at some point during the meal and withdrew any negative thoughts that had spawned upon arrival.  I saw it as another gift from God that day.

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We also had a wonderful waitress and the food was amazing, as always.  Devri was offered a complimentary dessert for her birthday, which John and I enjoyed very much.  Our daughter is not much for Tres Leches.  When they brought out her cake, our new friends sang Happy Birthday to her.  Then the female singer came over to our table and gave Devri a five dollar bill for her birthday.  We were completely surprised.  We were even more surprised when she returned a few minutes later and gave Sam $3 because she didn’t want him to be left out.  We felt bad that they were giving their tip to our kids.  They insisted that the kids keep the money and they told us that they had so enjoyed our family being there that night.  Again, I was overwhelmed with joy and gratefulness for such a blessing.

When we left that evening, John and I got in our vehicle and looked at each other and at the same time said, “This has been the best night ever.”  I can truthfully say that on May 1, 2015, God made ME feel loved.  I love Him in the good times and the bad times and I know that He will never leave me nor forsake me.  I know that there are times that I feel Him and there are times that I feel all alone.  But on this day, I laid my head down believing that He really loves ME!

Cousin Jerry

The Fishing Coach

Everyone needs a title.  At least, when we took a Growing Kids God’s Way class they taught us that the adults in your children’s lives should have a title.  Don’t allow them to just call adults by their first name.  This is not showing respect.  Therefore, my cousin Jerry who we are blessed to get to spend time with about once or twice a year has a title with our children.  I did not want them calling him “Mr. Jerry”-this seemed too impersonal.  Mr. McBride-too formal.  Uncle Jerry-too confusing (my little dude just asks too many questions and this would lead to confusion for him).  Since Jerry is my cousin, we decided that our kiddos would call him “Cousin Jerry”.  It works for us. 

Cousin Jerry has a lake house that he so graciously allows us to use for one week out of the summer.  He is my honey’s favorite cousin.  They connect on many levels.  Both are business owners, both are hard workers, both love the Lord, both love the lake, they are outdoorsmen and both love me (ha!).  Last summer, Jerry took my honey and the little dude out on his fishing boat.  This was the little dude’s first time to go fishing.  He was super excited! And also a little unsure of that big fish!

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The little dude started t-ball about a month ago.  We were driving home from his first practice and he said, “Mommy, you know who my fishing coach is, don’t you?” I said, “No. Who?” He said, “Cousin Jerry, silly!”  So, thank you, Cousin Jerry.  Thank you for being a part of my life and the life of my son.  Every boy needs good men in his life.  You are a good man.  Happy Birthday to you!


Today is my husband’s birthday.  It is also a Thursday.  For some reason I love Thursdays.  I always have.  Maybe because Thursday means Friday is right around the corner.  Maybe because the television line-up for Thursdays is so good.  I really wouldn’t know about that now because we never watch television.  This is just a distant memory.  Didn’t E.R. air on Thursday?  Anyway…back to topic.  Today is my husband’s birthday. 

In honor or such a sweet, kind man, I am going to blog about some pretty unknown facts about things that he commonly says.  I say unknown because my sweet John is a man of few words.  You have to know him pretty well to have any idea that these things come out of his mouth.  These will be listed in random order (as they come to my mind).

1.  douche bag-I hate this one.  But I have heard it more than once from his mouth.  His granddaughters (thank goodness) have no idea what this is and after spending the weekend with their papa, began calling each other “dish rag”.  Much better!  🙂

2.  Stump Hauler-this phrase is commonly used for those people in life that just can’t be reasoned with and/or are not the brightest crayon in the box.  One day in town we actually saw an oversized trailer being hauled by an 18-wheeler with a HUGE stump.  It was very comedic to us.

3.  Freak of Nature or F.O.N. -this is also a very commonly used word around here.  If someone does something that doesn’t quite “click” with him, then they might be labeled as an F.O.N.  When our son was about two years old (he spoke very early), he told us that his four-year old cousin was a “freak of nature because he picks his nose”.  Unfortunately, he carries this same title at times. 

4.  Colder than a witch’s tit in a brass bra-I guess that’s pretty cold.  Enough said.

5.  A mule looking at a new gate-that dumb look that some people get…you know you have seen it before.  Crazy eyes!

6.  This is livin’ in America-this is commonly said after a good meal or after a day of enjoyment such as riding motorcycles or taking the boat out.

7.  So good makes you want to slap your mother-in-law.  Another one often used in regard to a meal.

8.  I’ve Dined Sufficiently-obviously food related.

9.  Feel Better?-you might be asked this if you accidentally burp in front of him. 

10.  I’ve had worse cuts on my eyeball-not much sympathy for those many boo-boo’s that our children endure.  Must be why they come to me to kiss it. 

11.  I’d rather fight a circular saw-I hate the image this conjures up in my mind.  This is what he would say if he encountered a really tough guy.

12.  I’m gonna throw you in the dumpster-tells our son (and other people’s children) that he is going to dispose of them in this manner.

There are more, I’m sure.  I just cannot think of them right now.  This is one post I might be revisiting. 

I adore my husband.  He is very kind-hearted and a joy to share life with. (I know I am not supposed to end a sentence with the word “with”, but it just couldn’t be written any other way.)  He is my superman.  But that is a whole other blog.  Love you John!


13.  Nicknames that John has for people-they are usually pretty original!  Sometimes it’s just because he has a hard time with names, but mostly it’s just his way.  Here are a few-

  • Merica-our sweet daughter-in-law, Jerica
  • Leroy-a cousin named Roddy and NOBODY else better call him “Leroy”.  He absolutely does not allow anyone but John to call him this.
  • Rodchester-our beautiful niece Brooke who is about to get married.  He has always called her this.  Don’t know why, but it has always been something special to her.
  • Missy-his 1st born Melissa-Missy just always stuck!  She is a little sassy and super sweet!
  •  Thumper-our boy Sam.  John says he is like a KTM motorcycle.  It can go through it all and it keeps on going.  Therefore it was dubbed “Thumper”.

I must add another one. 

14.  N.A.T.-not a toy-This term was coined when Sam grew big enough to reach for things that a baby didn’t need to be touching.  So one day John told him, “That’s a N.A.T.”  It worked.  The boy never touched anything on that table ever again and anytime we said, “That’s a N.A.T.”, his little hand went back to his side.  Now it is funny to hear Sam tell our little darling 20 month-old the same phrase.

Proverbs 22:1

A good name is more desirable than great riches; to be esteemed is better than silver or gold.

All Cleaned Up

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